Finding My Motivation

January is the month when everyone has the most enthusiasm. We are supposed to set our goals and resolutions and strive to meet them with new vigor. But this year I just can't get behind the fitness craze or diet trends. I'm feeling older, more tired, and honestly continually overwhelmed.

I wanted to take this year by the balls! "Skinny 35!" was my mantra for the whole last quarter of 2022. Everyday I did affirmations and I made my bed in the morning, all the while thinking that this year I would eventually wake up magically more motivated.

Instead I started the new year with a UTI, a mountain of laundry, and an overwhelming amount of tasks piled up for me at work. Not surprisingly, I have not been able to find my motivation at the bottom of my morning glass of water. In fact, I feel like I'm following all the advice and all the recommendations and I'm still over here feeling exhausted and defeated.

I have started and maintained new routines, and I am currently forcing myself to complete the tasks. The whole time I'm going through the motions and feeling resentful that have yet to receive my promised natural boost of serotonin.

How long do I have to force myself to do something before it becomes an easier habit? The internet will tell you 2-4 weeks or every day for 15 days... I don't agree. I've been switching my laundry over before work and after work, and folding two loads every night before bed for months and I still hate doing it.

For the last few years I have not been meeting my financial or fitness goals. I've just been slowly gaining weight and spending through my savings. Even though I'm working and making more money than ever before, I just seem to have more and more expenses.

Mo' money, Mo'problems! Am I right?

... but seriously, I feel like I can't even plan a family vacation or some kind of get away for me and the husband because I'm so far behind where I wanted to be. So I've got nothing to look forward towards, and I'm living in a pretty deep rut.

Don't get me wrong I love my family and spending time at home with my husband and kids, but it seems like I'm running in an endless hamster wheel. I even have a few friends and family that I get to hang out with occasionally. So, I should be happier, or at least motivated to keep it up, right?

But I'm not. Today I'll finish my work tasks and eat my left overs for lunch and when I get home I'll switch the laundry and make fish sticks and French fries for dinner and at 7:00pm I'll give my kids a bath and at 8:00pm I'll make them go to bed and then I'll spend 1 hour scrolling on my phone, or watching tv while folding laundry.

And tomorrow I'll do it again.

Message me with some of your favorite tips and tricks to stay motivated. I'm open to suggestions! Just a working mom here always trying to dig down for a bit more motivation.